On Day 1 of the #Write28Days challenge I mentioned that life had given me a big excuse not to do the challenge. I was referring to the passing of our sweet dog, Pablo, on 31st January. He was 12 years old and was ill for three weeks before he passed. Different emotions all at once is what I’m facing since the day he passed.
Pablo was not the first dog I’ve had, but he was the first dog we’ve had as a couple. He was with us 12 of the 14 years we’ve been married. We chose the breed and his name before we got him – so he was indeed very special.
Pablo had his own blog and his own Facebook page. I plan to keep these active with dog related posts and to bring awareness to the issue of stray/abandoned dogs. Incidentally, our Lucky is a dog we took off the streets. You can read her story in my post ‘How We Got Lucky‘.
Pablo truly taught us how to stop and smell the flowers! ♥
Different Emotions All At Once
Different emotions all at once I feel within my heart. I'm mourning a loss, yet celebrating a life Broken hearted, yet grateful Tearful, yet smiling I'm creating, while at times I feel so broken. Deep sobs in the quiet of the night Are my way of mourning. I miss my lovely pup And yet I cannot but help smiling When I think of his antics And all the joy he brought to us. I know he's forever lost, Yet he's forever remembered. He beyond pain, I hope But I am confused too. What happens to dogs when they die Is there a heaven for them too? Is he gamboling around somewhere Bringing joy and smiles to others? I wish it were so, but I really don't know. As I write this, I cannot but shed tears Helpless about the loss But I need to be attentive and strong For the other pup who needs us And the strays we feed. Twelve years he was with us Through our ups and downs He saw me through some of my darkest days I buried my head in his more times than I can count Comforted by his loving presence Knowing he was there. And he took comfort in our presence too Clinging to me when he was ill Demanding we walk him and play with him. I miss you, my dear boy But I know you had to go Different emotions all at once I feel in my heart But the greatest one is gratitude For you, sweet Pablo.
Heartbreak and hope are not mutually exclusive. We can be angry and sad and filled with longing for something we cannot have, and simultaneously we can be grateful for what we’ve got — aware, for reasons we’d never choose, of what really matters and what doesn’t.Lennon Flowers
This post was written in response to Kate Motaung’s Five Minute Friday prompt – Once.