What are you making time for? This is a question I’m directing at myself.
We’ve been very particular and cautious about our interactions during this pandemic, but a visit to a pathology lab for a routine blood test, saw me getting the ‘flu and then passing it on to Jose! This has set us back physically. But I also suspect that we’re suffering from mental fatigue because of 20 odd months of feeling ‘locked in’.
Through the year, I’ve been making a lot of plans and trying, often unsuccessfully, to get things off the ground – a podcast, courses, etc. Also, I’ve invested in material and a community that I don’t seem to do justice to in the last two months. Somehow, with all the work at home, I barely make it to the studio twice a week. It often feels like I’m going through the motions of blogging as well.
All this brings me to ask myself: what are you making time for?
What Are You Making Time For?
Rumi wrote, “The heart eats a particular food from every companion; it receives a particular nourishment from every piece of knowledge.” I realised I needed to find out what nourishment my activities give me.
a. I looked at my schedule (the actual one!) and saw how I spent most of my time.
b. Also, how I felt when I’m doing these activities – at peace and light-hearted, or did an activity make me feel agitated and stressed?
c. I’m making a list of things that I really enjoy doing and haven’t been doing enough of.
To connect this with my Word of the Year – Yes – what conscious choices am I making about how I spend my time? And what can I say ‘no’ to? How can I divert myself from the usual rabbit holes?
I realised, for example, that with the current situation in our country, I’m spending too much time on Twitter and getting drawn into negative conversations. One harmless response I made to a tweet resulted in my words getting misrepresented because I’m a Christian. I spent almost half a day blocking trolls! I’m committed to speaking out against injustice, but I don’t want to be drawn into negative conversations.
The headlines and working for a living and navigating the realities of adult life, can feel a little lighter, a little less soul-crushing, when we make space for quiet and beauty and tender attention.– Holly Wren Spaulding
I’ve been looking at things that I enjoy doing and don’t spend enough time on. Things that nourish my soul. One of these is going on mindful walks and taking photographs. My photographs are not of a great standard, but I enjoy taking them and looking at them later on. They bring back memories I cherish. Here’s an example of a photograph I took while walking Pablo a couple of years ago. It reminds me of all the times I enjoyed walking him on the ‘hill’ in our housing complex. And how he and I would just spend time ‘being’.
So this past month, although I’ve felt low and not achieved much, I’ve done some inner work that has helped me say ‘yes’ to better choices.
What are you making time for?
Today I’m linking in with Lisa Burgess’ post for an update on my WOTY.