Realizing more about myself over the past few years, I’ve concluded that I’m like a mermaid. Not literally, of course—my legs are still intact. I mean, like Anaïs Nin said, “I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.”
We live in times when we throw away stuff that doesn’t work without even trying to get it fixed. We live in times when we’re cannot tolerate discomfort, much less pain. We must find solutions everything and answers to every question. And when we don’t, we’re uncomfortable and unhappy.
I used to be that way. Okay, I’ll admit I still am, but not as much as before. I have learned that not everything can be resolved, not every question answered and not every relationship restored. Some people will just never get us – even our own family – but that’s okay.
I’ve learned to focus more on understanding my own behaviour and responses to what’s happening around me. I’m no longer afraid to plumb the depths of my own darkness, understand my motives, and be at peace with it all. I’ve learned to trust my intuition about people and events and act accordingly.
We are a radically bottom-line society, eager to act and to end tension, and thus we lose opportunities to know ourselves for our motives and our secrets.”― Thomas Moore, Care Of The Soul – A Guide For Cultivating Depth And Sacredness In Everyday Life
My journey of figuring myself out and healing is ongoing, but today, I’m celebrating the mermaid within me, the part that’s not afraid to explore the deeper aspects of who I am.
This is Day 18 of My 66-day Journey of Healing Through Writing and Sharing. As I mentioned in an earlier post , I might be reposting some posts that I wrote a few years ago – mostly personal stories or those shared with me by others which talk about emotional pain and dealing with it.