The last few days the heat and humidity of Mumbai seem to be getting me down. I have lots to do
- a new exciting project to plan;
- plenty of posts that I’ve written in my head, but not translated in to writing;
- some fundraising material to write and;
- a house to get ready for some guests…
I have plenty to be thankful for – husband, family, friends and quite importantly, for me at this point in life, the fact that I don’t have to go out each day and earn a living.
So you think I should be happy, no? Oh yes, I’ve written several posts on the subject, haven’t I? And many people tell me that they read this blog for inspiration…so shouldn’t I be constantly in positive-mode and feeling on top of the world?
The sad truth is, I haven’t been happy, positive, inspired or on top of the world for the last ten days or so. I go through the motions of it all and try my best to post here regularly…but it’s not been fun. And I haven’t been fun. No, no….I’ve been a pain in José’s side recently.
I’ve:
- become picky and crotchety and take offence at every small thing.
- been watching way too much television and am consequently pretty ‘absent’.
- taken to grumbling too much – about the heat – about the people in this city who, for the most part, I find unfriendly, distant and/or shallow. (What a snob, this Hyderabadi is!), and just about anything I can find to nag and grumble.
So that has been me for the past ten days!
Now you’re wondering about what all of the above has to do with a diamond necklace, right? Well, I thought this ‘gem’ of Rumi’s summed up my condition pretty well:
“You wander from room to room
Hunting for the diamond necklace
That is already around your neck!”
~ Jalal-Uddin Rumi
Yes, I have every reason to be happy and grateful. And I know that happiness and joy and peace can be found inside myself….yet I’m wandering around……And not only am I just wandering but I’m also pointing fingers at people and things outside myself, knowing fully well that what I experience on the outside is only a reflection of what’s inside of me.
So today I found my diamond necklace again – made myself happy and consequently there’s a much more positive air around our home. I’m going to try to make sure I keep my diamond necklace close!
When you make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others. ~ Anais Nin
May you be inspired – everyday!
I agree Corinne… but one can be miserable sometimes too… I am glad you are back to your normal happy self, Hugs, IHM
Nice to know that you are human Corinne. I've been in a similar place and am trying to reconnect to an attitude of gratitude.Pulling away from people and hanging out with the dogs in nature until I get centered helps. Perhaps like a plant in need of water you are dehydrated in the humidity. I've often been amazed by improved mood in the heat with proper hydration. Hope you feel better, take care, Lorena
You're wonderful! Even when you claim you're feeling 'crotchety' – you come up with such gems!
This was a pleasure to read, and I hope I'll be able to apply it too.
P.S. Don't make anti-Mumbai-weather posts please! I'll be working in Mumbai from June onwards, and I need some encouragement. 🙂
So what did you do to find your diamond necklace?
Lovely post as usual, Corinne. I somehow feel its not possible to always keep your face to the sun with life's ups and downs. I am glad you are back tour old cheersful self… Hugs !
Hi Corinne,
Good to know you are back to your normal self again. We sometimes experience such 'lows' in life, we only have to try not to 'sink' lower.
I wish you more positive spirit.
Have a wonderful day.
Luchi.
Hello Corinne, You are so honest, so realistic. I always find you inspiring. We all have our 'too much heat' days…. I guess your heat is equivalent of our cold, dull or wet days here in UK. I totoaly understand and I am glad you found your diamond neckalce again. It is beautiful as you always are. Hugs across the world….
u make me smile corinne! :)…we are on the same boat. take care always! 🙂