It’s been over a month since I’ve written here and this Word of the Year update for August is really overdue. Life hasn’t been easy in the last few months, and I’m tempted to skip writing this post, but I’m committed to a monthly review – so here it is! I had chosen the them of Healing Through Routine for August. But things just didn’t go according to plan. On reviewing the month I realized August 2023 was a time for Healing and Breaking.
Healing And Breaking
August is normally a special month for me. It’s my birthday month and I love celebrating my birthday in small and meaningful ways. But this year, my birthday brought back a lot of unpleasant memories of the past.
Having been on a focused path of healing this year, I was caught unawares by this flood of memories when they hit me. What’s more, as I tried to delve into these feelings, I started to recall things that I thought I had dealt with!
This experience was humbling and let me feeling broken and vulnerable. Rather, than dealing with this, I found myself wanting to run away from these thoughts. Trying to rationalize them, I wondered why I allowed these memories to matter at all!
It was only as August ended, did I come to terms with how I was feeling. I realized that these feelings of brokenness were a gift – a reminder of how far along my healing journey I really was. I began to allow myself to delve deeper into my past experiences.
I came to the realization that much of my hurt was caused from my attempts to fit in with and belong to my family, my friends and significant others. This has changed. I no longer try so hard to be accepted and loved.
If you are healing and breaking all at once, do not fear. This is growth.– Q Gibson
Opening myself up to healing without fear, is growth. Owning my brokeness is progress. I’m grateful for what I learned about myself in August.