I’m sure this last year has been been a huge challenge for us all. In India, the number of deaths from Covid are rising by the day. The stories are horrendous. Life seems a bit surreal these days, doesn’t it? There are times you feel fragile, vulnerable, broken open.
In recent times, almost everyone I know has experienced some kind of major loss- death of a family member or a friend, break up of a relationship, illness or job loss.
Today, is the third anniversary of my father‘s passing and the perfect opportunity to examine my own feelings of brokenness that came not just with his passing but in the year that led up to it. Without going into details, let me say that it has resulted in me cutting myself off almost entirely from my family. As I reflected this morning, I realized that I’ve moved past the pain and towards gratitude for all that happened.
This is the pattern I’ve experienced with the losses, I’ve gone through. At first there’s pain, the feeling of being broken open. But as I accept my feelings rather than resist them, they slowly turn into something else. I experience grace, gratitude and peace. Above all, I am better able to empathise with others facing loss, the uncertainty and the pain that inevitable changes of life bring.
We can let the circumstances of our lives harden us so that we become increasingly resentful and afraid, or we can let them soften us and make us kinder and more open to what scares us.Pema Chödrön
We are not broken open for nothing. Our brokenness can serve a purpose far greater than we realize.