Another month has sped past and we’re now in April. No, actually we’re in the middle of April and I meant to put this out much earlier! In case you’re wondering about the title of this post, it’s from the Maya Angelou quote that reads: There’s no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you. As you read, you’ll realize why I’ve shared this quote.
An Untold Story
1. Where did you see God in March?
As I look back on March, I realize that it was a time of productivity and reflection – one that led to changes in our routine. We also began to heal a bit from the loss of Pablo. We will always miss him – but that deep grief we felt has slowly begun to heal. Now although he figures in our conversation almost every day, it’s more us recalling happy memories. I felt God’s healing touch through the month as I reflected on the many losses I’ve suffered in recent years. I still weep from time to time when I recall all those I’ve lost, especially my parents, and there’s a lot of healing that has to take place, not just about the loss but other drama surrounding their illnesses and death. But I do believe that the healing work has begun.
2. When did you feel most like yourself in March?
I felt most satisfied when I sat down to spend time in study. It’s been ages since I’ve done that. Really spend a day studying. I’ve decided to spend one day a week doing that and it feels good. In case you are curious as to what I am studying, read on.
3. What is one word you’re holding onto as we move into April?
I’ve been feeling for a long time that I must write a lot more. Write a book. Tell my untold story or stories. And while I write regularly on my blogs, I want to write more deeply, discover hidden depths to myself and my writing. I realize that I’ve been holding back. Afraid. Not daring enough. Not caring enough. But no more. I’m determined to say yes, to writing more. Much more and writing bravely.
“You either walk inside your own story and own it or you stand outside your story and hustle for your worthiness.”Brené Brown
So in March, I invested in joining Hope Writers and I’m spending time studying the resources they have on offer. While much of the community consists of Christian writers who write devotionals and on faith and scripture, I’m slowly finding my way around the community and hope to be part of a small circle of writers.
So the word I’m holding onto in April is ‘invest’. Investing time and money to improve and deepen my writing. Here’s what I jotted down in my bullet journal at the start of the month.
What are your April plans like?
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